Wednesday, March 25, 2009

5 months

Last night I took a bath hoping it would magically make me fall asleep before morning came (no such luck) but I did end up reading parts of the What to Expect When You're Expecting Book. When I was pregnant with Ashley I read that book every day, several times a day. I think I've picked it up twice with this pregnancy and haven't been too interested in anything it had to say. I'm starting to feel guilty about my lack of interest this time around and the fact that I'm not obsessing over every detail like I did with Ashley. It's not like I would really have the time to read all of the books and websites like I did back then but it still makes me feel like I'm already neglecting this kid.

Anyways, I took my bath, was scanning through the book, still not really interested in what they had to say and then I saw it. The chapter titled "The 5th Month" and below it read 18-22 weeks. I think my jaw fell open and I sat in shock for a minute or two. How could I really be five months pregnant already? It scared me but excited me at the same time. When I found out I was pregnant I was excited because we had the holidays, Ashley's Birthday and the move to keep me busy and distracted so the first trimester would fly by. Little did I know the first HALF of my pregnancy would fly by this quickly. HOLY MOLY! So then I started figuring out different dates in my head, how many weeks until school gets out (I've been telling myself I'll really be pregnant when school is out, what was I thinking? I'll almost be delivering by the time school gets out) I started to realize there isn't much time. I started to wonder if I hadn't picked up that book if I would have woken up one morning and been 9 months pregnant without knowing how I got that far.

It was a strange moment and I guess I feel like I'm really pregnant now, at least that's what the book tells me.